This is my life

Okay, I'm at work, and technically in the middle of a work sprint (in which I have so far gotten Starbucks and lunch and looked at fandom_stocking) but THESE THINGS NEED TO BE SAID.

1. TEAM VELOCIRAPTOR GOT INTO THE GISHWHES BOOK - TWICE! :D :D :D I will post pics eventually, but I am SO EXCITE! Especially cause there's a picture of my mom in one of the entries. :)

2. fandom_stocking is live! Submit your stocking here. Fandom stocking is one of my great, fannish, winter loves. It's brilliant. I'll be writing my stocking tonight and then starting to look for stockings I can fill.

3. SPN midseason finale tonight. I have a bad feeling my Sam feels will be engaged to the nth degree.

4. Work is... interesting. More on that later, maybe.

5. ??? What's up with you, dwircle?

Here's the full 30 days, for those who want to play along.

( Day 29: What is your current project or projects? )

In honor of my return to DW, a meme!

( Cut for the 'how YOU doin' meme. )

I think it's safe. *weary smile*

There was a thing. It's not a thing I'm going to talk about because I just... ugh. I don't want to. But suffice it to say, people found me, and there was wankiness (not RL people, have no fear), and I needed to get away for a little while. Now I have the dreary task of un-friendslocking appropriate posts, which just sucks. I'll get to it eventually, but it's not something I'm interested in doing right now.

So on top of the thing, there's been a work thing. I was working at client #1, and client #2 (an old client of mine that was convinced they would implode if they could not have me back (I'm not kidding)) convinced my bosses that they needed me.

So, I was informed on a Friday that on Monday, the dude at client #2 and I would spend 2 days at client #2, where he handed over all his work to me (dumping 26 grants on me the week before a deadline was a massive fucking clusterfuck) and then we would spend 2 days at client #1, where I trained him on all my work (which, uh, took roughly an hour, and I spent the rest of my days pulling my hair out while I tried to do everything I needed to do for those 26 grants at client #1 (and which dude had fucked up massively, so I had to re-do all of his work)). It was a shitty week. And because it's deadline season, it just kept coming for the next six weeks. The last major deadline is Monday, and then I should be able to concentrate on my big projects and be ready to roll off at the end of March.

Also, tumblr. I have all kinds of things to say about it, but when people are like: it's totally mindless and easy, you just scroll down all the pretty pictures... yeah. That's pretty much it. It's really easy on my very tired brainmeats. I've spent some time cultivating my dash, so it's mostly stuff and/or people I like, so that's good. I'm on the very edges of SPN wank, so I hear about it but I don't get involved in it. Blocking posts is a beautiful thing, as is blacklisting. I'm kisahawklin over there if any of you would like to find me - but if you follow me and aren't into SPN, be sure to blacklist the supernatural tag. I will ALWAYS tag because OMG untagged posts make me want to claw my eyes out. (I am SO SPOILED for the back half of this season I could scream.)

ION, I am writing okay. Plenty of words ahead of my goal for the year, though I need to stop writing tags for my last bang and get working on my next one.

How's things, dwircle?

So I got about 90% of his panel on video. I'll upload it, but with the shitty wifi here in the hotel, it'll likely take me all night, or maybe until later in the week. If worse comes to worst, I'll upload it when I get home on Thursday.

( My two Misha stories )

(WTF am I supposed to do with this now? I have a tampon Misha threw at me. I can't just throw it away. But it's a tampon. WTF. I AM SO LOST.)

In your own space, talk about a creator. Show us why you think they are amazing. Leave a comment in this post saying you did it. Include a link to your post if you feel comfortable doing so.

So, I do enjoy this every year - and I love lots of creators, but it's nice to just pick one out and go on for a bit about why they're so great. And every year, one of the people I say I'm going to get to is busaikko. Guess what! This year is the year I talk about her.

( Cut for length. )

MY FANDOM STOCKING YOU GUYS. *cries* It is full of SO MANY AMAZING THINGS.

Fic

The Fusion Job by parcequelle. Leverage is SG-1! Eliot is Daniel Jackson (THIS MAKES ME SO HAPPY, YOU DON'T EVEN KNOW), Parker is Teal'c, Hardison is Sam Carter! It's just so so so good, you guys!

Parker on love by james. *breathes* Oh, this fic, my heart! It's a gorgeous read on Parker and love and Eliot and Hardison and just perfect and lovely.

Big Hero 6 fic about Hiro, Tadashi, and Aunt Cass by retsuko. Oh!!!! THIS IS EXACTLY THE FIC I WANTED YOU GUYS! It is so amazing, so perfectly them and domestic and lovely and just everything I wanted in the world for this movie, SO MUCH. :D :D :D

jenna_thorn wrote a delightful Losers piece called spam folder, where Aisha doesn't kill Jensen, and is friends with (if I've caught my reference correctly), Natasha Romanov. :D :D :D :D The Losers and MCU, two great tastes that taste great forever.

Art, photos, icons, banners

Gorgeous snow photos from sarajayechan. I loooooooooooooooooove snow, so these were really awesome - like this one:



Five smiley icons, also from sarajayechan, mostly Avatar: the Last Airbender (and Korra), which is BRILLIANT! I need lots more smiles on my journal, so I am thrilled to get these.

A Groot Happy Holidays Banner! Oh, and a link to Dancing Groot, if any of you haven't (I don't know how, but I suppose it is possible) seen it. GROOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOT!

From my buddy curiouscorvid, her first chibi (SAM WINCHESTER, EEEE!) and How to Train Your Dragon/Supernatural fusion where Cas is a Night Fury and Dean is his rider. :D :D :D

A delightful fireworks over London banner from sjh2009 that is absolutely gorgeous!

Hee hee hee, a cute Father Time gif from twinsarein.

omens made me Baymax and Mochi art! :D :D :D It is awesome! And somehow she got a RL cosplay picture of Baymax and Mochi!

trobadora gave me a lovely Dean/Cas New Year's banner! :D :D :D Dean/Cas hugs are the best! I love all the hugs. :D :D :D

In your own space, talk about your fannish origin story. How did you come to fandom, why did you choose your fannish name, do you have more than one secret identity? Leave a comment in this post saying you did it. Include a link to your post if you feel comfortable doing so.

I'm still trying to figure out how, exactly, I found my way to fandom. I started fanwriting when I was five. (I wrote a story that was basically: Fonzie does an Evil Kneivel type trick on his motorcycle, and SLAMS INTO A BRICK WALL AND DIES! I was five. Writing tragedy and deathfic. What the hell.) Also - I shared this story with my mother, who looked at me funny but didn't make me do anything like see a child psychologist or anything, so I kept writing stories. Mostly in my head after that, and mostly self-inserts into Star Wars and the like.

Teenagerhood was bizarre. I would've been hugely multifannish, if there'd been an internet back then (I think) and then I might have figured out that I was actually in love with KITT, not David Hasslehoff.

Weirdly, once I went to college, I seem to have turned off my fannish interest. I think I just didn't have time. Music school is fucking all-consuming, yo.

I got back into it around 1999 - with, of all things, The Mummy. I found a Brendan Fraser fangroup and wrote some fiction. (RPS! Though I didn't actually want to have sex with Brendan, so I wrote us doing Tai Chi together. I wish this still existed in the world.)

From there, I moved into Buffy, where I joined a mailing list and started reading fanfiction - including slash! I was a Buffy/Spike shipper, but I found some Spike/Xander fic which made me do a Castiel-style headtilt, and then Spike/Angel (or Angelus) fanfic that made me go: OMG YES THIS ALL OF THIS FOREVER WHAT IS THIS EVEN?!!?!?!? D:

And then The Mummy 2 came out, and I started writing a script for The Mummy 3. (Mine would've been SO MUCH BETTER than the one they actually made.) I wrote other stuff, too, mostly self-insert (and my self-insert was always the best friend or maternal figure or helper person because I really did want to be besties with these people, not have sex with them).

Then Lord of the Rings happened, and I found a group of super-awesome folks to get involved with (and got initiated into LJ), started writing even more self-insert stories (still thinking they were basically original fiction at this point, ahahaha oh, no), and then. And then! gayalithiel came onto the scene and we started writing a sprawling vampire universe populated with our favorite actors. Vampire Greg. (Long story for another time.) And seriously, we wrote SO MUCH. I was so heavily into that universe. I still look back and think I could turn it into something really cool - we had some really neat ideas and did just buttloads of research and background work. Maybe someday.

And then - I finally broke the fanfiction barrier. 10 years ago, this past Christmas eve. I posted my very first fanfic, and Alexander (2004) FPS/RPS thing for the girl who would become my ex-girlfriend. I wrote a fair number of shorts in that fandom, most dedicated to her, and then everything there fell apart and my writing mojo completely dried up.

Thankfully, I got out of the bad situation, and writing came back, slowly but surely. And when my future wife introduced me to SGA, I never looked back. I have 290 works on the AO3, and 134 of them are SGA. We moved to DW pretty much the second it opened its doors, and it's become my fannish home. I'm still trying to wrangle other platforms, and I think I've pretty much come up with this (subject to change):

kate: my fannish and personal home; where my friends are; where I post about squeeful things and RL things and just about everything
kisahawklin: where all the fic is kept
kisahawklin: I keep this only for the few friends and fests only on LJ. Someday it may become obsolete, but not yet.
kisahawklin: pretty much exclusively for SPN tweeting and watching the cast live-tweet shows
kisahawklin: I get the appeal, now. Mostly for SPN and definitely for all things visual. Still learning my way around there.

And... that's that, I guess? There should probably be a note up there about falling into the incredible Losers fandom, and moving into Supernatural, but I think I've covered those enough before. YAY FANDOM! :D :D :D :D

ETA: I always seem to start blathering and then miss parts of the question! Kisa Hawklin is the name of my first D&D character and has been my online moniker since I got online, back in 1993. I do have two pseudonyms, and I challenge anyone to figure out who they are. One is almost 11 years old and the other is at least 5. Both have works posted at the AO3. (Some of my favorites, actually. I may eventually pull the 11 year old pseud into kisahawklin, but we'll see.) I doubt anyone would ever guess them, though (and have at - good luck with that!).

In case you want to play along!

( Me rambling about Team Free Will and Wincestiel and some awesome recs. )

AND! I'm super late on this post, partially because life happened, but also partially because I posted a Wincestiel big bang a while back, thinking there wasn't going to be any art. Found out wifihunters was having a tough time IRL but was still working on the art and now it's live and holy crap IT IS AMAZING.

The story behind this story is that I signed up for a Wincestiel big bang last year, and the epic story I'd been working on (I had 25k words done going in – I really thought I could finish it!). But then I've realized it's roughly a 100k word story and I wasn't going to finish in time for the deadline. But it was a 10k minimum and I can pull that out in a day if I need to, so I came up with a second story and started to write. What if Cas asked the Winchesters out on a date – both of them? But then I couldn't finish that one either (though they extended the deadline by a month – I could've probably made it if they'd said something when I sent my defaulting email). And so when this Team Free Will Big Bang came up, I decided to finish that romcom idea because I loved it so much. I'm still working on the other epic story, and hoping to finish that one next year. I've got another one in the works, too, an alt!season 9 that I think will be awesome. But anyway – I finished this one, and there is freaking GORGEOUS art to go with it. :D :D :D :D

Title: The Three Body Problem
Author: kisahawklin
Artist: wifihunters
Art Post: Gorgeous art here
Pairing: Wincestiel
Rating: NC17
Word Count: ~36000
Warnings: None
Summary: Cas asks the Winchesters on a date. Yes, both of them.



Here is my December meme topics post, if you have something you desperately want to ask me.

Full text of the question: grammarwoman: Are there any fandoms that you resisted but fell into anyway? Or ones that you thought would be perfect for you but wound up not clicking?

Yeah, actually, yes to both of these.

So, after SGA, or even while it was waning, after it'd been cancelled, I was looking around hard for a fandom. The SGA folks had scattered, and I tried a lot of the things they were doing, Sherlock and Merlin, a few other things I can't even remember now. None of it hit me. Neither did any show really grab me - or rather, neither did show + fandom. There were shows I loved with fandoms that were either not where I was or just non-existent (Revenge, though I'm off that now), Leverage (though I've seen more love lately), White Collar or fandoms I didn't click with or, I loved the show, but had no real fannish interest (Hannibal, Sleepy Hollow).

I found The Losers, which is a great small fandom, and there was a lot of love and energy there (and I still love it, and will likely play in it forever), but since it was a movie, there wasn't the same sort of excitement I remembered from SGA, when we were all watching the episodes live and there was meta and commiseration about hiatus and... yeah.

And then. And then Supernatural (which I had STUDIOUSLY AVOIDED getting involved with back when it started because I was in SGA and didn't want another fandom, and then later because I had the impression that the fandom was batshit nuts (this impression has not changed)). I've talked about how I fell into this fandom before (thanks a lot, cupidsbow), and it was... tough. I've never been embarrassed about SGA the way I am sometimes embarrassed about SPN. I had no qualms with the fandom (even when they went a little over-the-top) like I do with SPN. But I'm here, and the show has really hooked me (lucky for me Season 10 is just knocking it out of the park for me) and I don't think I'll be going anywhere soon. I'm doing that thing where everything reminds me of the boys. It used to be John and Rodney - eeeeeeeeverything reminded me of John and Rodney. Now it's Sam and Castiel and even Dean sometimes. And this? This is not somewhere I expected to be. And I probably would have laughed at you, if you had said this to me a couple years ago.

As for the other, I've also talked about it before a bit, but: MCU. I love the movies a ton, I'm keeping up with Agents of SHIELD (sort of - I think I'm three eps behind now?), I've even read a few fics (and bookmarked this terrific one: How to Win Friends and Influence People by igrockspock Summary: Maria Hill's definition of "job interview" is different from other people's.). And I've read a few other things - one of devildoll's Steve/Bucky fics from before Cap 1, even, some short Tony/Steve and Bucky/Steve and Natasha/Pepper and I've even betaed Clint/Coulson. I like it; it's fine. I love the characters and the depth, but. I dunno. I'm still just waiting, expecting to get hit with that one episode/movie/idea that knocks me over and drags me into the fandom.

Here is my December meme topics post, if you have something you desperately want to ask me.