kate: Aang from behind, looking at a starry night. (AtLA: Aang meditating)
Thank you so much for your kind words and hugs, I cannot tell you how much I appreciate every single one.

I'm still having a rough time, and the shooting in Orlando has hit me particularly hard, making me crawl into my shell and lock up tight. I have no cope left, so I can't respond to requests asking if I'm okay, I simply don't have it in me to talk about it (and still people seem to want to talk to me about it, even after I say "I can't talk about it" - like what they're going to say is SO MUCH MORE IMPORTANT than the fact that I need to NOT TALK ABOUT THIS RIGHT NOW).

So as you can imagine, rough times. I'm at client #2 today, but I've got a full docket at client #1, too, so I expect it to be an extremely busy and stressful day, and honestly I am holding on by my fingernails right now.

I hope y'all are doing well, my love for you knows no bounds, and again, thank you. <3333
kate: Jared says 'BREAK ME'. Go on, I dare ya. (30stm: Jared 'break me')
1. Boston is snowing. I already came in early (Sunday night) and stayed late (today) and if I can't get home for at least a two day weekend I am going to murder things.
2. My cabbie completely missed my fucking street, and instead of driving around the block to deliver me (IN THE SNOW) to my destination, he pulled over and let me out half a block down the street.
3. There was disgusting slush all the way down the street.
4. My shoes, socks, and the bottom 6 inches of my pants were SOAKED.
5. I decided to change into a different pair of pants and socks because why not? I have my suitcase with me.
6. Somewhere between the office where I store my luggage and the office I work in, I LOST ONE OF THE SOCKS. It's maybe 100 feet of hallway between here and there, and I have searched it and both offices thoroughly.
7. Those were my favorite socks. :(

ETA: SOCK FOUND! It was on top of someone's cubicle! Which, embarrassing, but oh well. Apparently I was in such a huff, it went flying. /o\
kate: Kate Winslet is wryly amused (Default)
Sorry I disappeared like that. Things have been nuts over here.

So first, kitties! Fatty is much better. Pretty much all the issues he had are gone, he's eating regularly and chasing Weebl and going in the litter box and everything is working like planned.

Jeeves is... well. Diabetic. We're giving him 4 units of insulin per day, which is just crazy. But, he's also pretty much back to normal, so the kitty household feels back on an even keel. THANK THE GODS.

I, on the other hand, have had a huge work shake-up that... is good? Really good, I think, but still makes me nervous. I'm gonna blather about it under here for a while - I think this is cut for length but you never know. )

And that's all the news that's fit to print. What's up with you guys? *goes to check the dwircle*
kate: Garcia looking doubtful in pink cat's eye glasses :D (CM: Garcia doubtful)
I hate this client. They are so fucking divided and bitchy and everyone just complains about everyone else instead of trying to help anyone out...

And AGAIN, it's assumed I can literally step in and do two peoples' workload with NO training. Excuse me, I am great, yes, but YOU STILL HAVE TO SHOW ME WHAT TO DO. I do not magically understand your convoluted and ridiculous processes and systems.

And a little less condescension would be great, too, thanks.

Fucking hell.

7/13/15 11:30 pm
kate: Purple widemouthed lit candle in ceramic bowl (Candle: single purple)
Lots of big news around here.

+ I am done in Philly! THANK THE LORD.
- Chicago is a complete and utter lie. I am not doing what they said I'd be doing, and in fact, it is not fun work at all and this is going to be a long and shitty six weeks. WHOOPEE.
- Jeeves is doing that circling thing again.
-- When we took Jeeves to the vet, they found out he was diabetic (new since the last time this happened) and won't give us steroids to fix his circling. We got insulin and a neuro consult. WHOOPEE.
-------------- WTAF, scary non-ghost story under here. )

That's all the news that's fit to print, hope my non-ghost story was fun for a laugh, and hiiiiiiii. Life sucks right now, sorry. :(

ETA: Actually - no it's not. There's less than a week to sign up for gishwhes. We're team velociraptor, and we are most definitely not being competitive about this thing, we're in it for the kicks and to get our feet wet. Next year, we'll be playing to win (ha, maybe) but this year, we're just in it to have a good time. So come join us? It's $18.87 to register, but it's supposed to be amazing and lifechanging, and whatever whatever. So.... join? We have six slots left. :D

Rough times.

6/7/15 11:51 am
kate: Kate Winslet is wryly amused (Default)
Work was truly hell for the last six weeks. I don't want to talk about it, at all.

I am slowly working toward an even keel, but I am having a rough patch here, and it's been in a lot of areas that I am sort of generally trying to parse and not doing a particularly good job at. I might try the 7 lines from 7 WIPs meme because I need to look at what I'm writing and be happy for a change.

I am so behind on emails/comments to friends who are also having a tough time. It's tougher to be supportive when you're in a low place yourself. I'll try, but I can't promise anything on that front.

And now I am going to see a movie. I thought I was going to see San Andreas because I love apocalypse/disaster movies + THE ROCK, but I just saw good things about Spy with Melissa McCarthy, and I think I might go see that instead, and save the disaster for next week.

Also, it's my birthday coming up, and that always fucks with my emotions, so that's probably part of it, too. This is one of those times where I just remind myself to be kind to myself, and float along, doing what I can do, until things start to move for the better.

How are things, dwircle? Tell me good things about you and yours. <3
kate: Kate Winslet is wryly amused (Default)
I have been busy busy busy at work, and not in a place to want to post about most of it (I've become more and more unwilling to talk about it here; not sure why that is, but also short of instrospective time, so I may never figure it out). That said, here's a taste of what my work life is like at the moment:

This morning, I woke up from a work stress dream because yesterday I decided to ACTUALLY do PTO instead of doing the stuff I needed to do for an email I got as I was coming back from the office (yes, on a PTO day...). That was 6:30am. So I got up, did the work that I needed to do, and in the middle of it, the PI emailed to say "Oh, yeah, we're never going to make that Thursday deadline, so let's just push it out a couple of weeks." At 7am. So that was both super-annoying (because if I had let my procrastination superpowers do their work, I could've just woken up to a nice "whew, don't have to worry about that" instead of getting up at 6:30am and doing crappy work), and also super-annoying (because I TOLD her that next week was an impossible deadline with two subawards, but she didn't believe me). But anyway, I finished my two things for her, the one thing for another PI that her email had reminded me of, revised her budget because changing the deadline changes the start date which changes the inflation, and then decided to do a travel thing because I forgot something.

What I wanted to do was cancel the flight I'd scheduled for 4/27-4/30 so I was catching an earlier flight on 4/30 (because my brother's flying in and I want to get in early). But what I ended up doing instead was cancelling my flight for next week. DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD: So I called my airline and said, "noooooooo please don't cancel" and they couldn't help me, and to rebook the flight, it cost me an addition $450. So that was fun. I went back to bed. No more doing travel things at 8am for me.

Of course, what I WANT to be doing is working out the romantic-ish part of the hugely action-adventure story I'm telling for the J2 big bang. Of course, I'm one of maybe six people not writing J2 or Wincest (I'm writing Wincestiel, though it's pretty Sam/Cas heavy at the moment).

How's things, dwircle? I realized because I haven't been feeling like posting, I haven't been reading, either, and I went back a ways to check on folks, but going back a month is probably not in the cards right this second. I'll try to catch up, though. <333

Oh dwircle.

3/17/15 11:10 am
kate: Kate Winslet is wryly amused (Default)
I forgot dress shirts. I almost forgot my suit jackets, but I went back for them (we were on the road! thank goodness I remembered before we got more than a couple blocks away!). The shirts, I totally forgot and didn't realize until this morning. Oh, self. /o\

I'm wearing an only-slightly-inappropriate for work stripey turtleneck. Hilariously, it's horizontal black and white stripes and the lining of the blazer I'm wearing is vertical black and white stripes. I feel like a walking optical illusion. :D

Yeah, I'll be skipping the St. Patty's day team dinner to go buy some work shirts.
kate: Kate Winslet is wryly amused (Default)
I think it's safe. *weary smile*

There was a thing. It's not a thing I'm going to talk about because I just... ugh. I don't want to. But suffice it to say, people found me, and there was wankiness (not RL people, have no fear), and I needed to get away for a little while. Now I have the dreary task of un-friendslocking appropriate posts, which just sucks. I'll get to it eventually, but it's not something I'm interested in doing right now.

So on top of the thing, there's been a work thing. I was working at client #1, and client #2 (an old client of mine that was convinced they would implode if they could not have me back (I'm not kidding)) convinced my bosses that they needed me.

So, I was informed on a Friday that on Monday, the dude at client #2 and I would spend 2 days at client #2, where he handed over all his work to me (dumping 26 grants on me the week before a deadline was a massive fucking clusterfuck) and then we would spend 2 days at client #1, where I trained him on all my work (which, uh, took roughly an hour, and I spent the rest of my days pulling my hair out while I tried to do everything I needed to do for those 26 grants at client #1 (and which dude had fucked up massively, so I had to re-do all of his work)). It was a shitty week. And because it's deadline season, it just kept coming for the next six weeks. The last major deadline is Monday, and then I should be able to concentrate on my big projects and be ready to roll off at the end of March.

Also, tumblr. I have all kinds of things to say about it, but when people are like: it's totally mindless and easy, you just scroll down all the pretty pictures... yeah. That's pretty much it. It's really easy on my very tired brainmeats. I've spent some time cultivating my dash, so it's mostly stuff and/or people I like, so that's good. I'm on the very edges of SPN wank, so I hear about it but I don't get involved in it. Blocking posts is a beautiful thing, as is blacklisting. I'm kisahawklin over there if any of you would like to find me - but if you follow me and aren't into SPN, be sure to blacklist the supernatural tag. I will ALWAYS tag because OMG untagged posts make me want to claw my eyes out. (I am SO SPOILED for the back half of this season I could scream.)

ION, I am writing okay. Plenty of words ahead of my goal for the year, though I need to stop writing tags for my last bang and get working on my next one.

How's things, dwircle?

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