You ever have one of those days where every fic's the wrong fic?

[kate]

Just woke up (which sucks because I fell asleep after 3am yesterday) and in scrolling my dwircle with all my fic feeds, there's just... nothing I want right now. People are feeling hurt by the show so there is this plethora of fluffy, happy fic, and it is the exact opposite of what I want.

And I would work on my own not-fluffy fic, but I just got a new Macbook Air (yay!) and it has office 2011, but that won't recognize .docx files, which of course all my stories are because I am super lazy and often just leave the doc open for days before saving it, and then do so in a hurry. And of course my work computer encrypts all my damn flash drives, so I have to take the flash drive to another computer, unencrypt and download all my stories, then wipe the flash drive, then re-upload, and then transfer the stuff to the mac. I fell asleep somewhere during wiping the flash drive. And now I'm awake but my wife is asleep and I am afraid to do this stuff without her looking over my shoulder because the chance that I will do something stupid and lose half a million words of fic is terrifying.

In other news, ante_up_losers is live, and there's so much good stuff!!! These were most definitely the right fic, art, and vids! :D :D :D

I received the wonderful Negotiable Affection (give me something to hold onto) which is hooker!Cougar and john!Jensen's first kinky appointment. Includes bondage and marking (my favorite!). It's wonderful and perfect, moreso than I can say for reasons which will have to wait until after the reveal, and I love love love it!

Also excellent: Your Heart Beating Next to Mine, Jensen/Cougar/Pooch/Jolene, a soulbond fic that has a very different take on it than I've ever seen, and which I enjoy immensely. I'd love another 100,000 words of this fic to roll around in, because I love the way xie portrays all the characters and Jensen's general hesitancy. Warning: mentions of (and descriptions of resultant trauma) of abuse (mostly emotional, I think) from a previous boyfriend.

SG1/Losers crossover that has the most amazing Aisha (comics canon but set in movie timeline, I think?): Get Your Hate On, which captures Aisha and Jensen and disbelief at the Stargate program beautifully. Also, wonderful appearance by Rodney McKay.

Save the Last Dance for Me is a fucking CLAY/ROQUE VID! And it is wonderful and perfect, and the song choice and clips are amaaaaaaaaaazing, OMG you need this in your life, I am serious!

Jacinta and Carlita Kick Ass, art of genderbent Jensen and Cougar. I don't know what to say - it's just... right. And I really like Cougar's boobs.

More reviews later! Have to see if I can do something with my docs.

Comments

[recessional]

That's basically it, a huge part of why I'm comparatively much more a producer than a consumer, fic-ishly. Even stuff that's quite good is usually . . . . anywhere from slightly to eye-crossingly off for me. It's mostly my own fault: I tend to end up with very vividly strong impressions of characters and settings, and it's just my luck that very often I end up 30º off he fannish hivemind, so to speak.

(I'm kind of cursed. Even the one time I went for the m/m ship that should have had the fannish hivemind enraptured AND which I could accept variations on interp for . . . it turned out that was a het-dominated fandom with unexamined race issues, and one of my ship is black. :|)

[kate]

Oh, man! That sucks, I'm sorry you've had those experiences. :((((((

I can certainly understand why your production is so high, then! I had a friend who used to write a rarepair and basically said "I write it so that months from now, maybe I'll come across it and be delighted that someone wrote my rarepair!" Which I've always found endearing, if incomprehensible to me (I can't imagine not remembering something I've written. I've got 253 fics posted and while I don't remember every one, I can't imagine coming across one and not knowing it was mine).

[recessional]

That particular one was ridiculous. I was like, OMG! So excite! Finally, I love the ship of the main characters that are two hot guys and one of them has ISSUES WITH EMOTIONS and the other one is CARING AND BADASS and they have a TEAM full of HOT PEOPLE so like and like this should be fannish catnip for once I will have fic - wait, wait, where is all this stereotyped romance-novel het between white people coming from. [And just to make it better, I don't interpret the particular female character they all love as "white", but fandom certainly does!] M'S CURSE STRIKES AGAIN!

When Pacific Rim came along, I was ready for it and came out going "despite the obvious Stacker/Herc and the HITTING US OVER THE HEAD Mako/Raleigh, I am willing to bet significant money that the day after tomorrow, the kink-memes will be full of Newt/Hermann and Raleigh/Chuck, as those are the pairings I have the least possible interest in." AND LO, IT WAS SO.

Yeah, I'll never forget that I wrote it, but if it's been long enough it can at least feel like a reread instead of "oh look there's a typo I missed". But yeah, that's pretty much why every time I'm into a fandom where fic is desired I'm full of "now let me write what I want to see!" rather than "now let me find all the fic!"