Five things make a post

[kate]

1. I’m in a comm called do_it and the most recent post includes a perfect description of that queasy feeling I get when things start to lapse out of control from what was originally just simple procrastination, and the cycle and spiral that causes this (i.e. what my life has been for the last, say, four months). It doesn’t happen to me much at work (I’m just getting over a bunch of junk and cleaning out my inbox), but there’s plenty of other stuff (HELLO FINANCES I’M LOOKING AT YOU) where this describes perfectly my situation. If it helps you to have support in this sort of thing, take a look at the comm. I don't participate much, but I often find the posts interesting and/or enlightening and/or commiserating.

2. I was thinking about the guilt I have about having so many writing projects. Let's just go through what I have on my hard drive.


intoabar...due 11/8/10...status: 0/2000
sga_santa...due 12/10/10...status: 2000/?

Meta on teaching...status: 1300/2000
No Reins On This One (sequel to Losers Jensen noncon)...status: 468/8000
John H/C (originally for sga_santa 2009)...status 7463/18000
Slave thing for lavvyan...status: 1750/10000
Variations epilogue for iadorespike...status: 1230/5000

Flashfic ((Rodney/Jennifer/John/(Alicia) I posted that snippet of)...status: 3666/12000
How It Ends (You Already Know) (that dancing fic I've got a soundtrack for already)...status: 7709/11000
promptfic (Team Lorne ficlet that is the ONLY thing I have left to write from the five ingredient fic meme way back when)...status: 7193/12000?
Scent...1060/3000

Cambion...status: 3473/7500
JJ (John doppelganger fic based on a dream I had)...status: 3786/7500
OFC bodyswitching fic...status: 4007/20000

Contrary Motion (John ages, Rodney de-ages)...status: 1786/5000
SGA SYTYCD fusion...status: 1102/12000
SGA The Wedding Date fusion...status: 313/15000

Impromptu...status: 72655/90000 (with 16 other documents named some variation of notes, cut scenes, and recipes that probably total another 150,000 words, easy
SGA ER doc/forensic accountant thing...status: 3316/35000 (two other docs totaling 25000 words)
Deathfic (don't even ask): 13568/30000

Fatal Attraction (Criminal Minds (Reid)/SGA RPF (Flanigan) crossover, dark, dark, dark)...status: 787 (mostly notes/outline)/3000
Happily Ever After sequel...status: 119/5000
Wingfic (for spillingvelvet)...status: 223 (mostly outline)/8000

Hokay, so. Of that, I'm actively working on my SGA santa and How It Ends (You Already Know). There are probably three stories that are completely and utterly dead, and another eight that I'm unlikely to finish because of time constraints/lack of interest/whatever. Thanks to a delightful email from meghanc, I realized that once upon a time, I promised myself I'd finish everything I ever started because I used to have a lack of things to write. I used to finish everything I was writing because I didn't have anything else in my head, ideas didn't come flooding in all the time, and I often had time between finishing one fic and getting the idea for the next. No longer. Now I have so many ideas I don't know what to do with them. I think I may put up a few of the fic snippets on prospectus. Clearing out my WIP folders would make me feel less stressed out. I think it's time for a fall cleaning project over there.

3. Status updates: I slipped and fell on the way to the hospital (during my lunch hour - I work next to a hospital!) earlier. I'm unhurt (except my pride) but sore (ouch, my back). Finances crappy as ever but I feel better about it, anyway, because I know some of the most amazing people, seriously. Almost all the way caught up on work; if I get 100% caught up, I may have time to write at work! OTW stuff done except meeting minutes (there's always one more thing), hope to have some grants going in for fellowships in the next few weeks. Last thing I need to get off my plate: get crossovers and queerlygen under control. When that's done I'll feel a lot better about everything, I think.

4. Movies I have seen relatively recently and enjoyed immensely: Secretariat and RED. Both just wonderful.

5. Have a delicious, delicious recipe. (This is what I do when I have no money, I bake with whatever is on hand. Wait until I'm down to honey and ramen noodles.)

1 cup brown sugar
1/4 cup shortening
1/2 cup peanut butter
1 egg
3/4 cup milk
1/2 teaspoon vanilla extract
1-1/4 cups all-purpose flour
1/2 teaspoon baking soda
1 teaspoon cream of tartar
1/2 pinch salt
1 c chocolate chips

Preheat the oven to 350 degrees F (175 degrees C). Line a cupcake pan with paper liners, or grease and flour cups.

In a large bowl, mix together the brown sugar, shortening and peanut butter until light and fluffy. Beat in the eggs one at a time, then stir in the vanilla. Combine the flour, cream of tartar, baking soda and salt; stir into the batter alternately with the milk. Add chocolate chips. Spoon into the prepared muffin cups.

Bake for 25 to 30 minutes in the preheated oven, until the top of the cupcakes spring back when lightly pressed. Cool in the pan for at least 10 minutes before removing to a wire rack to cool completely.

Comments

[kate]

Yeah, I don't have anxiety, but I get that feeling too. I feel bad for people who have that diagnosis (my sister does); living with that all the time would be really rough. ETA: Obvs I mean you too, here, *hugs* Oy, fail communication - it's too early. /o\

And I love that blog, she's hilarious! I love that particular one too, and clean ALL the things is my new catchphrase.