That's right - the words have to exist for you to edit them! You can do it!

And you never know - I remember having some really rough days when I was writing longform, and when I went back to edit, I couldn't tell which parts were written on the good days and which were written on the bad. Maybe with some distance, they'll look like good words after all.

Congrats on getting words, that's an accomplishment after that kind of ordeal!