Yup, I can definitely see that. I've read a few posts and fics around that and it always makes me feel sad. I think if I really thought that Wei Wuxian thought Lan Wangji hated him and pestered him anyway, I wouldn't like him either. It just doesn't read that way to me (which I am fully aware is completely personal, different interpretations etc. etc.). (Also, because I identify so much with Wei Wuxian I feel personally guilty about this and required to explain, so. HERE YOU GO.)
It may be a book thing; I haven't read it in over a year now, so my memory of it is fuzzy. The way it is in my head (and no idea where this is from, could be fanon, could be from some remembered part of the book that overlaps with CQL, could be completely made up because I identify with Wei Wuxian): everyone tells Wei Wuxian all the time that he's annoying and people hate him and he's overly familiar so he just assumes that's true. The thing IS - Wei Wuxian actually has more sense than that. He HAS to, from his time on the streets. He has to be truly aware of people's feelings if he doesn't want to get beaten or shooed off or whatever. (This pings my "I'm adopted so I feel rejection EXTREMELY keenly and often know it happens ever before the person rejecting me does" thing.)
So my feeling is that Wei Wuxian is fully aware that Lan Wangji doesn't hate him (I mean, in CQL, it's obvious to me that Lan Wangji doesn't, and it's obviously clear to Lan Xichen), but everyone else tells him they think Lan Wangji does (in CQL both Nie Huaisang and Jiang Cheng tell him so) and he's got a massive (probably unrecognized) crush on Lan Wangji, and doesn't know what else to do, because all he wants is for Lan Wangji to pay attention to him.
I think if I ever went up to someone and had the feeling that it really just made them uncomfortable or angry, I would leave. But it always felt like surprise to me. Like no one ever bothered to do this, and they had to figure things out for themselves, so I just do what I do until they figure it out, and I always assumed if, after figuring it out, they still didn't want me hanging around, they'd give me clues to that effect. SO ANYWAY. I'm trying not to feel the need to justify myself but failing pretty hard at that, sorry, bb. :( If it helps, I'm better about this now (not to mention generally a more private person). <3
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It may be a book thing; I haven't read it in over a year now, so my memory of it is fuzzy. The way it is in my head (and no idea where this is from, could be fanon, could be from some remembered part of the book that overlaps with CQL, could be completely made up because I identify with Wei Wuxian): everyone tells Wei Wuxian all the time that he's annoying and people hate him and he's overly familiar so he just assumes that's true. The thing IS - Wei Wuxian actually has more sense than that. He HAS to, from his time on the streets. He has to be truly aware of people's feelings if he doesn't want to get beaten or shooed off or whatever. (This pings my "I'm adopted so I feel rejection EXTREMELY keenly and often know it happens ever before the person rejecting me does" thing.)
So my feeling is that Wei Wuxian is fully aware that Lan Wangji doesn't hate him (I mean, in CQL, it's obvious to me that Lan Wangji doesn't, and it's obviously clear to Lan Xichen), but everyone else tells him they think Lan Wangji does (in CQL both Nie Huaisang and Jiang Cheng tell him so) and he's got a massive (probably unrecognized) crush on Lan Wangji, and doesn't know what else to do, because all he wants is for Lan Wangji to pay attention to him.
I think if I ever went up to someone and had the feeling that it really just made them uncomfortable or angry, I would leave. But it always felt like surprise to me. Like no one ever bothered to do this, and they had to figure things out for themselves, so I just do what I do until they figure it out, and I always assumed if, after figuring it out, they still didn't want me hanging around, they'd give me clues to that effect. SO ANYWAY. I'm trying not to feel the need to justify myself but failing pretty hard at that, sorry, bb. :( If it helps, I'm better about this now (not to mention generally a more private person). <3